As a way of concluding and obliterating the uncertainty.

Should I?

...


And, sure enough, the look on my face eradiated a beam of light as you uttered the words I was longing for, and along with them came an automatic pattern which caught me off guard, even though I knew it would come,

but, in a form of polite contentment, (which was, after all, the only way I was able to showcase what I felt) I quickly packed the rest of my things and I left because,


there were no other issues to be unveiled.

And I took it for granted, which was the proper thing to do.



So, I left,
and I was amazed at how quickly things vary, in such little time.
From the perspective I'm taking place (the side I'm discussing, always being aware that there are plenty of views, whether it's viewed from an academic way, personal way, environmental way, etcetera) everything seemed like a void, unclear and blurry
And now everything was on the table and everything was so palpable and one could see the future, so to speak.


And, now
I was

just ok.

Knowing that there is hope, even when you no longer think it will.

Anyways, this whole matter is starting to be very much tongue-in-cheek. And I see it more as a way of enjoying, and being sarcastic, and making fun of me, and never taking life seriously, and proving things to myself, and keeping secrets, (to get to say: "I know something you don't", like a child would) and feeling the thrill and the frostbite propelling upon, and acting, and hiding things whilst I smile to myself, and saying "if only you'd know", and that is quite rewarding for I've grown apart and changed so much this year, it is rather ironic, funny, yet amazing.


What's left to do?

Nothing.

For I've seen the blueprints, and each step I've memorized.
It goes like this: I wait, I see, I leave, I return, I see, I leave for good, the drought starts, the drought ends. I return, you return, and I will have flashbacks of mid-year.

Blame me, I find funny how life works.

Water had never tasted so good.

Moratorium

The facilities built around you, in order to help you, or to stimulate you, or to lure you into doing what they agree to be good have crashed - The longevity of them, to some point, was allegedly efficient, but proven wrong as they are now, they are no longer in charge and must leave.

As for now, (and as a possible result of this decrease) you mistakenly invested on a few unnecessary issues which are not needed to be argued, for the mistakes made are long gone by now, and probably fixed by the holders that were recently upgraded (also, as a result of this decrease).

Despite what has been said, the tasks are not to be seen as a form of punishment (or something imposed, if you will), rather as a form of gratitude : a trophy yet to be awarded.

In order to rectify, or to restore this downhill state, some things need to be arranged, arrayed. And some others : simply do not. It is your mission to find out which ones are, which ones are not. You've been given the deadline, and a few hints to get you going, as one might say.

Lastly, as we speak, we're being recorded, for you to consult, when in doubt, and to wisely change locations once you have assured youself to have a task completed. Stick to the plan, and, again, do not try to decipher the codes on the device, for a trigger was precisely set upon it, which activates an alarm directly that will let us know if you have. We will meet again in a couple of days for further information, and for the missions completed so far to be analyzed.

Heavily flooded

a s h e s

skin and muscle, both.


Thrive. struggle.
collapse.

and do it again.

----

r e m o v e

the bind

gracefully.

and the cue
shall be

m o u t h e d

----

numerous strings
coming up

from your

m o u t h

----

it's been betoken
now, perform.

----

s u r r e n d e r

Ignite your
self

outwards.

when ablazed,
embrace

the fire
and

suggest

kindly

holding back
the willpower.

Heirloom

I'm given an heirloom which is a halo proned body-full which promotes the growth of my nearby beings inwards and I felt the resonance being uttered and I stayed there up-on-one-foot and I welcomed the noise open-handed and the core melted into the rest and the seeds were filled with pure voltage and the static awaited for the contact of the being I was waiting for.

Upfront

Nevermind

For thou are stronger now and shielded, at least until thy eyes meet thy lover.

Undo

For the armour is around thou, tightly protecting.

Until now thou were not aware, but it embraces thou, and thy courage is built upon and above everything.

Call it a day, and focus into what is really important.

Rock-built as thou are now, thou are able to endure until then, and able to wait as well, are not thou?

The reward is breath-taking.

There goes thy incentive.

Intermission 2

It's wednesday.

Mood: frustated.
Because I have so many things to do and so very little time, and I'm not in the mood for writing papers, or anything really.
And I've been locked in my house and not going anywhere and stopped caring and left things to rot and there's a plate with a rampant army of ants which I left unchecked and now I have to take care of it, although it's not a task at all, but still.

Anyhow I manage to stay focused and positive and centered and optimistic because these past days have easily gone fast, and I want Friday to arrive soon.
And there's so many things that keep my mind busy, which has been quite good and as long as I keep this mode, I'm fine.

But, something's bugging me
And I'm not sure why --
...

well...

I've been told that I have to be grateful with what I got, and not greedily covet for more.
And I am.

But who is to blame, really?

The weather is ok although I've seen better.

Intermission

As a disadvantage, communities interfere. Stubbornly but with good intentions.

We promptly react, not processing the thoughts, rather setting them loose.
They're not eminent to us.
We withdraw from them.

-

It is the first day of december and I'm cold-feeted and dressed unproperly for the weather.
I don't want this month to be over, really.
For me to cope with uncertainty, which I never liked.
But I'm concealing it, so I have to deal with it.

-

I don't like rain.

-

As a rule, I don't watch T.V on mondays,
because there's nothing good to watch, really.
And I finish unfinished papers, projects and whatnot.
And I listen to some music.

Winter although there isn't.